A re-read of one of my favorite books, “Into the Wild” is helping me get past a very difficult month for me. I been overwhelmed as of late due to trying to figure out how to do the things I want to do, and need to do and balance that with the reality of finances. Couple this with the passing of my husbands father has added more anxiety of myself aging(and how unhealthy I am right now) and my son future(and all I need to do for him so he has the best chance of an independent future). To add to this I am searching for services for Marley now that we have and “official” clinical diagnosis of Autism(which he has always had-but for insurance reasons we had to have a WA evaluation). Every phone call and every email is just about the same. It’s either no we don’t take Apple Health or yes we take Apple Health but there is a waiting list. For the waiting list I have continuously been told it would be a year and a half for any movement. Which is causing me to have more anxiety that by the time we make it to the top of the list Marley will be 16. So yesterday, I just had to take a break from everything, disconnect from computer and do some reading. I don’t read much anymore, mostly because I can never find quite time. So I started with some magazines and then saw an old favorite of mine. Below is one of my favorite excerpts.
“make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt.
So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservation, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future.
The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure.
The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
If you want to get more out of life, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy.
But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty.”
― Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild